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Tina Arena was AWESOME! I was in the 2nd row, and it was on at the State Theatre in Market St. which is probably the most gorgeous building I've ever visited!

Did I mention the 2nd row seat??

She mostly did stuff off her new album (Songs of Love & Loss 2), which didn't matter as she has the most amazing voice. She kept dancing all crazy-funky on stage which was cool too.

High points:
- "To Sir With Love" before interval
- "I Want to know what love is" with her guest, Kain somebody
- "Baby it's you"
- THE SILVER DRESS. OMFG. IF IT HAD BEEN IN THE PROGRAM I WOULD HAVE BOUGHT IT. HOLY SHIT HOTTEST THING EVER! It reminded me a bit of what Renee Zellweger wears in "Roxie" - but it was strapless with all this silver-beaded fringe and leaf-shaped mirrors hanging of it so it tinkled when Tina shimmied and just looked AMAZING.
- Tina sang "Maybe this time" from "Cabaret" - she played Sally Bowles for 3 months at the state theatre a few years ago and it shows! I only wish I could have seen the production!
- The encore - in the silver dress - "Call Me" by Blondie. It really took the roof off! HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT


Um, now the reason I meant to post in the first place 2 dreams about S. which is odd as I don't usually dream about him.

Thursday night: I met a girl he was going to take to some event and she seemed really nice and I tried to be supportive and happy for him, but somehow he found out I liked him and then dumped the other girl for me, and I felt bad because she seemed really nice. And then there was...other things

Friday night: I dreamed there was a whole bunch of complex events but it ended with me discovering that S. hadn't realized I was into him and so in the dream I went up and asked him out and he said yes and it was a really fab feeling (I think that's my subconscious needing to practice so the real thing doesn't seem so scary)


I had a lot of trouble sleeping on Thursday, and ended up discovering the hotel cable. I watched The Women (1939) and have decided Norma Shearer (Mary Haines) is one of my new vintage style icons!!

I also bought a bunch of books and a couple of t-shirts, and had the most divine lunch on Friday.

The Jewish Museum was great, the building is amazing, the guide wasn't very good though - but then I'm pretty well read and I really enjoyed the exhibitions on Jewish history and custom. Also, some of the Jewish convict history is quite fascinating. The memorials are very fitting, peaceful places. Apparently it's the only Holocaust museum in the world which was established by survivors, so that's pretty special.

It took me a bit of time to get in the mood of the concert last night, and once I did I realized it was because I didn't want to be sitting and watching, I wanted to be up on stage belting the songs out myself! I guess Tina's lyrics and expression touch me on a deep level where I identify with them so deeply and just want to express them with the same passion she does.

Musical theatre, here i come?

I'm still totally freaking out about the housemate sitch, but hopefully this sustainability student will be a goer!

I went to the mall and got some groceries, also browsed at Dymocks. Saw a few vaguely interesting fantasy books, but what I really wanted to buy was the "best australian political cartoons 2008" and the easy piano book for "On A Clear Night" - Missy Higgins. It was cheap too, I would have bought it if it hadn't been for this rent looming over my head.

I really want to resolve things with Steve - I dreamed last night that I grabbed him by the arm and said "can we talk sometime" and he agreed and we went of to do that. I don't remember what he said, but yeah.

I'm feeling crappy today - worrying about money and Lizzie and boy things - I really hope it's just PMS. I'm not in the mood for Burlesque tonight, but I guess I'll go so I can hear the talk, not that I'll be a very glamorous example.

I just need to sleep or something I think.

So I know I pretty much dropped off the map for a while there. I guess I just haven't had a lot to say, I'm inside my own head a lot these days. I also tend to update my Facebook more because it doesn't require me to be so coherent!

The last month or so has been a bit of a rollercoaster ride; my dad got a job in Brisbane so my mum is getting the house ready to sell. I've moved into share housing with a nice deaf lady - we keep to ourselves, but we get along okay. If we don't find a third housemate by next Thursday though I'm going to need to come up with around $1100 for next month's rent (as there'll only be two of us). It sucks, because we have heaps of people come through, but no one ever moves in. I'm not really sure why but it bugs me.

I had my Jupiter return earlier this week, after which things started going well (my flirting with Steve, the guy in the cafe, became much more natural). I'm still confused about whether he's interested or not - but my friend Andrew in recruitment suggested that because he's a bit older than me and a nice guy he might be concerned about appearing sleazy, which would explain why he hasn't called and didn't end up coming out with me and the grads last night. Of course it is always possible he's not interested, but he does check me out all the time! The general strategic consensus was that I should sleaze onto him so he didn't feel like the sleazy one! In any case, I want to arrange to talk to him sometime, get things sorted. I want resolution on this.

Things with Chris are okay I guess, but we've kind of cooled it because he's not ready to have sex and I am, and so we're just being mutually respectful.

I finally met "Hot Pink" (as dubbed by my workmates), this stone butch dom. She was very forceful, and it was great. I also kissed a few other people (ones I knew!) All in all a good night. I did manage to make the faux pas of talking about how hot M. was - in front of the grad she is mentoring! But we had a laugh about it.

In a weird twist, Andrew went to school with Len and knows Maria too.

I've been lying around watching The Tudors in bed all morning - it's a very addictive show! We've hopefully got a few people coming to see the house today though - I will rest easier once we find someone. I'm really glad I don't have to worry too much about Elizabeth though - poor girl.

My sister is visiting next weekend, which will be great (I miss her!!!) and then the weekend after that I'm off to Sydney to see Tina Arena and visit the Jewish museum. I need to go to the shops and get a few things today, but other than that I think I'll have a quiet one, and possibly head out to the swing ball tonight - even though I got a nasty blister on my heel from walking around Parkes in my heels!

Fandom-wise, I watched "Painless" last week, it was good but I'm still digesting a little. I have the episode after that but am yet to watch it.

I'm honestly not sure - in the dream I was in a river in a big park in London with a couple of sailors, and one kissed me, and then was talking to the other and sort of shooed this one badger away (that was in the water). Then the three of us waded out of the water which was clear with a cement bottom which graduated up to grass. We walked along a path on the edge of the grass then climbed through a wire fence onto it. I knew it was urban but the fence was old and neglected. And there were badgers just placidly lying around on the grass and in the shallows of the water.

Come to think of it, one of the sailors was older (the one who didn't kiss me), but both were chivalrous. There was some sort of secret tv filming location which they were showing me because I was cute or something.

Perhaps the sailors represent the two men I'm attracted to, not sure about coming out of the water, maybe "coming clean" and the badgers - either badgering about coming clean about it (I'm not actually hiding anything and have shown interest to both and there's not any actual commitment/conflict as yet).

But the solitary nature of the badger seems significant somehow. I'm going to talk to the badgers tonight, regardless!

( Definitions used in this interpretation )

What I think it all means:

The two sailors represent the men I am interested in romantically/sexually. One older, one younger. Being in clear, calm water indicates that I'm aware of my feelings and need to "come clean" with both of them (indicated by leaving the water with them both). I may possibly find peace of mind by "kissing" one of them - though I may need to rein in my "badgering" (the elder one of them shooed a badger while we were in the water).

Leaving the water also ties in with a levelling of emotions, and then stepping onto the grass indicates my being more self-reliant. However the grass quickly turned to a narrow path alongside a fence. The three of us walked for a little while, and they explained they were showing me a secret tv filming location. I got the impression that it was because they thought I was hot.

The elder one climbed through the fence (I think), and then saw I was wearing heels (representing my glamor and femininity) as I stepped over (the younger sailor helped me over from behind and the elder one helped me step into the grass of the park, which was filled with badgers). The crossing over the fence represents success/achievement of my goals and desires.

I think the broader meaning of the dream is that through these people I will become stronger in myself and my self-reliance. I tend to think the badgers in the field symbolize other people, each living on their own terms (the park was filled with grass and very lovely).

I plan on inducing a dream tonight to see what else I can glean from their wisdom.


Earlier in the dream my right arm was injured by this flying robot ball thing - it lodged three big balls of shrapnel in my arm which looked like miniatures of it and were really painful. I think this indicates that my assertivness is being influenced somehow, or I am allowing it to be marginalized when I shouldn't.